CosmicStrive - CosmicNano42nd

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NEW UPDATE 1.0.1 IS OUT!
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- New Loading screen
- Bug fixes

9 minutes ago | [YT] | 0

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On this day, never forget 9/11.

1 week ago | [YT] | 9

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VENT:
I’m not feeling my best self at the brief moment. Well, mostly in IRL due to something I’ve been struggling for the last 3 years and so.

The thing is, I’ve feel like nobody at my school cares about me, and only care of people that they care about, and not giving everybody a chance to let them interact with such and such. Especially me trying to find a girlfriend that actually cares for me, which is very highly unlikely nowadays. To start things off, whenever I find a girl that I really like which they start off as very sweet, kind, and caring, and then we start talking, weeks or months later it ends things off with a bad note. They will end up being taken, being friendzoned, or not interested in me, and plus I am having trouble communicating in IRL for years now, only thing I could do is just small talk, with only “Hey, how are you”, blah blah blah.

And what I also hate is when students in my school are putting me on with some girls that I do not like which has been a constant problem since my high school life. They always say like “OOOH, COSMIC LIKES X”, and then the girl that they set me up with never had any feelings for me. And plus they tend to talk things about me JUST BECAUSE I AM AUTISTIC. And that seriously drives me insane, never told my parents about anything going on because the last time I did it they barely helped with such situation. And what also pisses me off is me being controled on what I can do and cannot do BOTH online and the internet, AND I HATE THAT.

What I don’t understand is that IceCreamJaxxie and TheUser10 have online relationships and they NEVER got called out for it, but when it comes to my other friends (even if they’re careful), THEY GET CALLED OUT?! And plus even IF I cannot find somebody IRL and resorting to find someone online with the same age and not doing YKW stuff, I CANNOT BECAUSE I WILL GET CALLED OUT. I just do NOT get why some people in the internet world had to be such snowflakes, especially the OSC. They’re a bunch of snowflakes who constantly forces us to do things what we can do and NOT do (some things we cannot do are reasonable).

To tell you guys the truth:
I AM NOT OKAY.

I only tell yall guys I am okay so yall don’t think I’m depressed or anything. I hate the IRL lifestyle I am in, I hate society in general. And if people at my school are gonna ignore me so they can trash talk about me just because I have a disability and being special needs, THAT IS GREAT. BECAUSE I AM NOT PUTTING UP WITH IT AND I AM AT MY BREAKING POINT. I HATE HAVING AUTISM AND I FEEL LIKE IT IS A DISEASE AND I AM NOT PROUD OF WHO I AM. It takes a huge toll on what I wanted to do..

IT TOOK ME 7 YEARS TO FIGURE OUT ADOBE AFTER EFFECTS, I BARELY KNEW ANY SHIT ABOUT BLENDER, AND I AM HAVING TROUBLE COMMUNICATING WITH MY SCHOOL FRIENDS IRL, AND PLUS GETTING BULLIED AND BLACKMAILING ME INTO DOING THINGS THAT I DON’T WANT TO DO, AND I HAD ENOUGH. AND PLUS I HAVE BEEN DRAGGED INTO A LOT OF DRAMA RECENTLY, AND ITS GETTING ON MY FREAKING NERVES.

I just feel like quitting the internet all together, but I don’t want to lose all of my hard work throughout the years. I’m just grateful to have all of my online friends, plus building a mainstay series for yall to enjoy.. Barely anything gets done because I’ve been going though a lot at school, which leads me to having moments like this.. And all of this makes me want to just call it quits. I just want somebody to understand of what I’ve been going through, and not a lunatic piece of shit like some of my fake friends are. And people say “Oh, true love is gonna come someday. You just need time.”, But here is the truth. NOT everyone has a true love. Not everyone in the world has one. If I can’t find someone in IRL nor online, then what is the point of seeking true love??

To make things short:
I am not okay. I am single, lonely, stressed, sad, mad, and feel like I am an outcast.

3 weeks ago | [YT] | 15

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happy birthday to Troy/StarCrossQuantum

3 weeks ago | [YT] | 6

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i really need a new computer

my current laptop SUCKS SHIT nowadays

4 weeks ago | [YT] | 11

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As of right now, the 2013 version of Chloe's Closet VS SML Sparta UltimateParison will officially be in the works, with the second version of its SuperParison counterpart is in the works.

1 month ago | [YT] | 7

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Changing plans:
The “It’s Your Fault - Mii Animation” will still use the Mii Creator sprites.

1 month ago | [YT] | 9

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Troy/TSG, if you are out there...





















PLEASE RETURN BRO WE FREAKING MISS YOU

2 months ago | [YT] | 13

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Am I or am I not wrong?

3 months ago | [YT] | 21