𝜗𝜚 ┈ Allie ｡ [ NO 1 CHEESECAKE ENJOYER !! ]

I've been uploading on this channel for a year now idk how to feel lol 😭

23 hours ago | [YT] | 25

𝜗𝜚 ┈ Allie ｡ [ NO 1 CHEESECAKE ENJOYER !! ]

Vent


















Im such a useless kid i cry over the silliest things i can't bare being yelled at the only reason why i keep living is because of my fucking stupid favourite song lol 🤣 deichuu ni saku is literally the only thing that's got me living i know I'm useless i know that nobody else you know doesn't constantly skip school you think i fake being sick i fake the fact that everything hurts the fact i can't get out of bed every day you think i fake crying you think I'm faking everything you think I'm some self absorbed bitch you think I'm brave you think i fake being scared of you well if you think fake everything here's something really I HATE YOU YOU'RE THE WORST DAD IN THE WORLD I HATE I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I WISH YOU FUCKING DIE ALREADY YOU OLD HAG 🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻 you think taking away my one source of comfort would fix me WELL NO you think blaming everything on a black box makes you a good parent right right you're SUCHHHHH a good dad you you right you think your such a good dad i know there are worst parents but "bad" parent to you means worrying about your kids grades nobody else's parents make their kid wanna kill them so much they don't make them cut themselves they don't make them cry on their BIRTHDAY they don't make them feel bad for needing a day of because of their health they don't on make their kid reliant on the internet for comfort and then strips the comfort from them because they don't go to school for a DAY or because they don't listen to you all the time (like you were a "perfect" lil kid bro you fr) but ig it's fine because you don't sa me or hit me till i have bruises that makes you the best dad in the world right? RIGHT?! 🥺 I've TRIED OH BELIEVE ME IVE TRIED TO LOVE YOU SINCE YOUR MY DAD MY FUCKING DAD BUT YOU MAKE IT SO HARD DO YOU KNOW WHY I DON'T TALK TO YOU BECAUSE I DON'T WANNA HURT YOUR FEELINGS (LIKE YOU HAVE ANY) BY TELLING YOU THIS SHIT RIGHT INFRONT OF YOUR FACE I WISH MOM NEVER MARRIED YOU FIRST OF ALL YOU MAKE HER FEEL USELESS YOU YELL AT HER BUT SHE STILL TRIED TO CONVINCE ME TO TO ATLEAST TRY AND LIKE YOU and what do you do in return be a shity human being i might not know the full picture but that's how you seem to be i bet you wouldn't care if i jumped of the roof top YOU NEVER CARE where were you when i cut my leg open and got 11 stitches (i forgot the exact number) you took so long to come your literally brother who i don't even know the name of was there what about you I wish you suffering and pain dad i wish you just felt a bit of what I feel A LITERAL SONG IS MY REASON FOR LIVING since i have to put up with your bs you act like a little kid for being a 43 year old man i wish you have to move away for work i never wanna see your stupid face ever again you love yelling at me it's not my fault I'm scared of talking infact you're the reason why anyways I've decided a date to do it let's see if things improve if it doesn't atleast i won't have to put up with this ever again

2 days ago | [YT] | 20

𝜗𝜚 ┈ Allie ｡ [ NO 1 CHEESECAKE ENJOYER !! ]

‪@EwAurie‬ could I drop out of your mep I really thought I'd be able to do the mep parts for your mep in time but because of some personal reasons I won't be able to do my part I'm really sorry

2 days ago | [YT] | 15

𝜗𝜚 ┈ Allie ｡ [ NO 1 CHEESECAKE ENJOYER !! ]

I hate burnout smm

3 days ago | [YT] | 91

𝜗𝜚 ┈ Allie ｡ [ NO 1 CHEESECAKE ENJOYER !! ]

I miss the kinda misery the kind where you were nice to me

6 days ago | [YT] | 46

𝜗𝜚 ┈ Allie ｡ [ NO 1 CHEESECAKE ENJOYER !! ]

It's almost my channel aniversary (like in a week) YAYY I'm probably not gonna be able to do anything for it but uh genuinely i can't believe I've been uploading for a year now time really flies I've defenitly improved alot and I'm genuinely so grateful to all of my friends 🥹

1 week ago | [YT] | 32

𝜗𝜚 ┈ Allie ｡ [ NO 1 CHEESECAKE ENJOYER !! ]

Castorice is so pretty 🥹💗

Why did i WILLINGLY buy a physics book like bud you already learn physics at school wtf are you buying a book about it 😭

1 week ago | [YT] | 28

𝜗𝜚 ┈ Allie ｡ [ NO 1 CHEESECAKE ENJOYER !! ]

Update!

I got my tablet back turns out my dad lied about giving it away so I'd stop asking cool i definitely didn't cry myself to sleep because I couldn't talk to my irl friend because I only had her number on my tablet so I couldn't talk with her at all plus I barely managed to talk with all of my friends on here the only way I managed to talk with yall was because my mom let me use her phone anyways this means I'll ACTUALLY start posting again

1 week ago | [YT] | 71

𝜗𝜚 ┈ Allie ｡ [ NO 1 CHEESECAKE ENJOYER !! ]

Hi ‪@name2376‬ um about your mep part I'm almost done with it but I might not be able to post it before the deadline so could I have small extension if its fine with you

1 week ago | [YT] | 69

𝜗𝜚 ┈ Allie ｡ [ NO 1 CHEESECAKE ENJOYER !! ]

Vent !
















Why do I get mad over the smallest of things like somebody could tell me to do smth I was already gonna do it makes me rlly upset because I was already gonna do that wtf did you have to tell me now i don't wanna do it anymore :(( I also get really jealous of other people who improve faster than me like we both started at the same time why are they better than me at the thing they probably spent more time doing that thing i still get mad i hate myself sm why am I like this WHYY plus people can't even tell when im mad lol i guess im really good at hiding it atleast im good at smth then :D

1 week ago (edited) | [YT] | 93