Have you ever had the sense that the “you” you think you are might not be the whole story?
This channel is for people who are genuinely curious about that question. Not as philosophy, but as a real look into direct experience.
Ilona Ciunaite is the author of Liberation Unleashed and co-founder of the Liberation Unleashed community, where thousands of people have explored the process of seeing through the sense of a separate self. On this channel she guides that same process through honest conversation, self-inquiry, and a practice called Deep Looking, a way of meeting what arises in experience directly and openly.
This is also the home of the Awakening Now podcast, where Ilona talks with teachers, authors, and people further along the path, all in service of the genuine seeker who is actively in the process of waking up.
You can come as you are. No meditation background needed, no spiritual framework required. Curiosity is enough.
Ilona Ciunaite
How much energy goes into appearing fine when you’re hurting?
We learn to be strong, keep everyone happy, or never ask for help. These ways of protecting ourselves can become so familiar that we believe they are who we are.
Today’s free Zoom meeting is an invitation to explore the masks we wear, what they protect, and the question underneath: what are you?
Come with your questions, share your experience, or simply listen. There’s no pressure to share anything personal.
Today, 15 October:
7 pm Mauritius / 4 pm UK / 5 pm Central Europe / 11 am US Eastern / 8 am US Pacific
Use the old link or join my newsletter to receive it.
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With love,
Ilona
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Ilona Ciunaite
I am very much looking forward to releasing this week's episode. Here is a clue.
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Ilona Ciunaite
What if the thing keeping you stuck is the belief that you can't get unstuck?
What if the doubt, the fear, the feeling that you're not ready or not capable of seeing through the self-illusion, is itself something to investigate?
Over the weekend, I held two live conversations where people brought their questions about awakening, seeking, fear, and what happens after the first glimpse.
I've gathered eight of those questions and my answers into a free PDF:
Who Am I Really? Eight Questions from Two Live Conversations
There is something here for you to explore, whether you're joining my course or not.
And if you've been considering the 8-week *Seeing Through the Self Illusion* course, this PDF will give you a taste of how I guide self-inquiry and help you decide whether you're ready to take that step.
Today is the last day to enroll. We begin tomorrow, October 13.
Read the free PDF: drive.google.com/file/d/14D4HIjACtTcRXct2F3hOL_uZE…
Course details and registration:
ilonaciunaite.com/8-week-program/
You don't need another belief about who you are.
You need to look and see for yourself.
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Ilona Ciunaite
On October 10, I open the doors to Round 3 of Seeing Through the Self Illusion.
And that same day, I'm holding two free live Zoom Q&A meetings at
08:00 UTC calendar.app.google/equzVtsx4fypyGvD9
14:00 UTC calendar.app.google/tTHXmm7Q25pC69FJ8
Click the link above to add to your calendar.
Come and meet me. Bring your questions. Bring your doubts and objections. Bring your glimpses. Bring the thing you have been trying to understand for years. Ask me about the course and find out whether these eight weeks are for you.
I am looking forward to seeing you there.
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Ilona Ciunaite
You can understand everything about awakening and still feel that something hasn’t quite clicked.
You may have read the books, watched countless videos, listened to teachers and understood the pointers. You may even have had glimpses.
But understanding is not the same as recognition.
At some point, you have to stop collecting answers and look directly into your own experience.
On October 10, I’m opening Round 3 of Seeing Through the Self Illusion, my 8-week guided group experience for sincere seekers who are ready to look.
Over the next few weeks I’ll be sharing more about self-inquiry, looking and recognition with my email subscribers.
If you would like to join us, get on the list here:
bit.ly/4j0yJgf
No new belief to adopt. No answer to memorise. Look and see for yourself.
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Ilona Ciunaite
I am working on the next episode of Awakening Now podcast and it is coming out on Saturday.
You may have handed your seeking over to someone you trusted completely. A teacher, a practice, a person who seemed to already know the way.
And somewhere in that trust, something got lost. Sometimes the very person pointing you toward freedom is quietly more comfortable when you stay exactly where you are.
This Saturday I'm releasing a conversation with Nicole Wordlaw, clinical psychologist and author of Waking Up Alone, about the moment she saw that clearly in her own life, and what she had to unwind afterward.
The question underneath the whole conversation: if seeking keeps a certain identity alive, who is it that actually awakens?
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Ilona Ciunaite
I had a lively conversation with Sabina from @sabina_witzel channel. We talked about awakening. I shared my experience, what happened, what was most challenging and what was funny. We compared notes, and we will meet again for more.
Hope you enjoy!
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Ilona Ciunaite
Here's something fun (and maybe useful): I made a short quiz to help spot where your attention is getting hijacked and pulled outward. That inner commentator is always busy talking about something specific, let's put some light on what that is for you.
No email required to see your results, I'm not trapping you with this one.
Just play, and see what it reveals about your blind spots.
Share your results!
attentiontraps.netlify.app/
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Ilona Ciunaite
An unusual thing about uncomfortable feelings: they are not against you.
The anxiety humming under a normal day, the guilt that shows up when you rest, the heaviness on a quiet Sunday - each one is a part of you that was hurt and never had the chance to heal. It keeps knocking because it's still waiting.
The knocking ceases the moment it's finally answered.
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Ilona Ciunaite
Philip started exploring Deep Looking on his own, before we ever worked together.
Here is what he shared, in his own words:
"I had read about Deep Looking and started exploring it myself before working with Ilona. Over time it began spreading like a soft wildfire in my system, showing up daily and bringing spontaneous openings that sometimes brought me to tears. Doing the session with Ilona felt like being held through the process, intensifying it over a longer period. I couldn't always articulate what was happening, but I trusted her completely. Often it's only later that I notice what has shifted, like a seed planted that takes time to grow."
A soft wildfire. A seed that takes time to grow.
This is how the work moves - quietly, in its own timing, and often deeper than words can follow.
Thank you, Philip, for letting me share this. 🙏
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