sleepapi 😛

17K ALREADY?? TYSM GUYS ILY ALL AND IM SO GRATEFULLL HOPEFULLY WE GET TO 20K SOON 🥳🥳🎉🎉

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2 hours ago | [YT] | 33

sleepapi 😛

Subscribe to ‪@Rikiiimura‬ or I'll tell Evan and Heeseung to do a gacha life dance battle 🫰🥰

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3 hours ago | [YT] | 20

sleepapi 😛

Guys today a cute guy complimented my outfit and said he liked it

(I'm tryna distract myself from pursuing my crush) #cooked

2 days ago | [YT] | 341

sleepapi 😛

"there's many fish in the sea"
I WANT THIS FISH RLLY BAD

"You'll find someone new"

I don't think some of y'all realize how hard it is to let go of 4 years of feelings (no shade to anyone)
It's not magically gonna go away overnight chat I really truly liked him and I cared about him so deeply like it's not even funny dude words could never be able to describe half of what I feel for him and trust me I AM trying to get over him but I literally can't because there's still a part of me that wants to keep pursuing and hoping he'll reciprocate my feelings like how he once did but I'm just so STUPIDDDD

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2 days ago | [YT] | 524

sleepapi 😛

Ty guys for 16k 🫰🥹🥹 I'm not gonna post today bc I'm going thru an actual heartbreak and I need some time to focus on my mental health, I'll probably post tomorrow maybe ✌️😽

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6 days ago | [YT] | 226

sleepapi 😛

Crush update: good and bad news

Also I'm sick AGAIN.
Anyway so today I went to school right and I was walking out the cafeteria in the morning and I ran into my friend (the one that's helping me out w my crush) and she looked so nervous and I was like "what happened" and she was like "I need to tell u smth" and I immediately knew it was Abt my crush so I was like "is it bad?" And she nodded and I started panicking like I was tryna smile but I was already dreading what she was gonna say then she left me on a cliffhanger and said "I'll tell u later in class" so I nodded and went to class and we had classes together at like 11:35am - 1:15pm so I waited, thinking he rejected me, I was sitting thru every class like: (Jay photos) and then when i finally got to the class with her she finally told me and said "You're too late.." and I immediately knew bro HE FUCKING LIKED ME BACK THEN AND NOW HE DOESNT and I literally fell backwards like a fuggin kdrama bro and I was about to cry and i was asking her questions and my voice was so shakey and I connected the dots and it explains why he used to act like that back then, i mean he was practically begging for my attention but I was SO FUCKING STUPIDDDD IT WAS SO OBVIOUS DUDE LIKE ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY AND LOOKING BACK AT IT I CRY EACH TIME. He told her that I should've made the first move bc he was scared BUT BRO I COULDN'T EVEN IF I WANTED TO BC 3 OF MY GOSH DARN FRIENDS LIKED HIM.. AND I'VE LIKED HIM FOR 4 YEARS BUT I WAS ALWAYS IN DENIAL AND I ONLY ACCEPTED IT THIS YEAR BC ALL 3 FRIENDS WENT ANOTHER HS. I was actually going through the 67 stages of grief bro I went to the bathroom to cry, I was typing on the PC'S keyboard aggressively and then I was happy bc he AT LEAST used to like me and then I've been thinking Abt it all day and keep crying bro I was so angry like wdym u liked me and knew how shy I was but expected me to make the first move but I'm also mad at myself bc ik it's my fault for being so damn clueless and my friend texted him, explaining that I couldn't make the first move bc 3 or my friends liked him but I've liked him back all this time. I held on for 4 years chat what do I do 💔💔💔 my friend said she'd try her best to make him like me again BUT IDKKK I was genuinely crashing out like I couldn't even hold back the tears in class, I was laughing and joking Abt it but all I wanted to do was cry like omfg this boy is so stupid but I love him sm and I'm contemplating sending him a message on TT calling him stupid and shi and why he didn't make the first move anyway yeah um sorry for making this long ik some of y'alls attention span is rlly low BUT BRO HELPPP PRAY FOR ME I'VE NEVER WAJTED A GUY THIS BAD
ALSO HE CAME INTO MY CLASS TO GET SNACKS CUS THERES A SNACK SHOP AND MY FRIEND OPENED THE DOOR FOR HIM BC I WAS TOO SAD TO EVEN LOOK AT HIM AND MY FRIEND SAID HE WAS LOOKING AT ME THRU THE LIL WINDOW ON THE DOOR
CHAT THIS IS SO COMPLICATED 😭😭

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6 days ago | [YT] | 213

sleepapi 😛

OMG GUYS GUYS GUYS I FORGOT TO TELL U THAT ON THURSDAY I BOUGHT NY FRIEND A SNACK IF SHE COULD DO ME A FAVOR BY LIKE HELPING ME OUT W MY CRUSH CUS SHE LOWK FORGOT ABT IT AND SHE WAS LIKE "YEAH I HAVE AN IDEA" AND THE DAY AFTER HE CAME INTO THE CLASS W HIS FRIEND TO BUY SMTH FROM LIKE THE SNACK SHOP CUS WE HAVE ONE IN OUR CLASSROOM AND HE CAME AND THEN AFTER DOING HIS BUSINESS HE LEFT W HIS FRIEND AND THEN LATER MY FRIEND TOLD ME SHE TEXTED HIM TELLING HIM TO COME TO THE CLASS CUS I WANTED TO SEE HIM AND HE CAME, AND I STARTED CONNECTING THE DOTS AND HE DID ACT A LIL SHY WHEN HE WAS IN OUR CLASS AND NOW THAT IM THINKING ABT IT, AFTER MY FRIEND GAVE HIM THE GREEN LIGHT HE IMMEDIATELY CAME LIKE ARGGRGHRHRH PLS IM BEGGING I WANT HIM TO MAKE THE FIRST MOVE SO BAD BC IM SUCH A WUSS BRO LIKE I STARTED SHAKING WHEN I OPENED THE DOOR FOR HIM IM TOO SHY FOR TS AND THEN WHEN I WALKED UP THE STAIRS TO GO TO CLASS HE WAS AT THE TOP, NEAR THE DOOR AND HE LOOKED AT ME THEN AT MY HAND AND KINDA LINGERED SO WE'D BOTH BE AT THE DOOR FRAME, AND IT WAS KINDA TIGHT SO I HAD TO SCOOTCH A LIL AJYWAY SRRY FOR MAKING THIS SI LONG BRO I NEEDED TO RANT 😭😭🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

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1 week ago | [YT] | 12

sleepapi 😛

Photo dump of my chopped ahh face ✌️😻 #staygayiguess

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1 week ago | [YT] | 38

sleepapi 😛

I rlly hope he likes me back


(my crush, not Jay lmao ✌️😭)

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1 week ago | [YT] | 15

sleepapi 😛

I need to stfu up already my notes app is enough guys I'm alr don't worry abt me I have RLLY bad mood swings that's all

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