art_St4rz3y123★

I hate how I get stressed so easily.

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I think I’m gonna join the dandy’s world community again 🥲 though I’m not too interested in the game anymore- I’ll just make videos and posts about it sometimes from now on.

4 days ago | [YT] | 142

art_St4rz3y123★

Hey st4rz, I need to tell you something..important.

I know I haven't been posting videos much lately. My head just feels..empty, I feel like I'm losing my hobby of drawing overtime because of the constant insults from my teachers and family I get everyday.

Not only that but I'm also using my dad's old phone since the other one needed repairs(which my dad didn't want to help me with), the old phone I'm using rn keeps on crashing every single time, I can't even make videos properly, the sound effects, the audios, it just can't work. By the time you are reading this, YouTube crashed about 10 times already, 10 TIMES.

I might as well just move on to my other accounts ‪@Zibalzibal2‬(my phone) ‪@Zibalzibal03‬(tablet) to post, but if I can, I will post in here instead. I will try to do the prizes from the art comp as soon as I can, I'm so sorry if I couldn't do it sooner, my home doesn't feel like home, I don't feel safe, I can't do what I love to do without getting scolded or insulted every time.

I just..I just want to d!3 already, I know I may be being dramatic, or maybe weak to be like this with insults I should just "ignore" or "forget", true I got used to it, but a part of me feels effected by it. I know I still got along way to go, I know I may be a failure, I know that I'm not good enough for anyone, my best efforts feel like the bare minimum for others, and that hurts me each and every time.

Gosh why am I crying while writing/typing this, what's wrong with me? I don't understand my feelings even though I understand other's, I need to do something, but what? How? Keep trying until I finally break? Right, I am already broken anyways. I'm growing more tired and tired day by day, I also feel like my temper is getting abit worse than before even though I used to be calm back then.

Im trying to manage my time, I'm trying my best, I swear. No one ever sees it, no one ever appreciates it, I can hear some of you saying "then try harder!" what if this is the hardest I can do? "Be a better version of yourself!" What if this is the best version?
I. Just. Can't. Keep. Up. My parents have high expectations for me, but seems like I'm failing them. Bad memory, bad time management, not much talents or hobbies, I am a dumb@ss after all?

If you read it all the way here, thank you, I appreciate it. I don't think much people would read till here, well atleast some of you did, thank you :)

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1 week ago | [YT] | 306

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I will live stream on TikTok for digital art >_<

2 weeks ago | [YT] | 85

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Posting old art :9

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2 weeks ago | [YT] | 123

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Random stuff

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2 weeks ago | [YT] | 136

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HELL YEAHHHHHH

3 weeks ago | [YT] | 47

art_St4rz3y123★

COMPETITION RESULTS ARE HERE!!🔔🔥

Digital art!!⤵️📱
1st: ‪@Parvin-012‬ & ‪@Mofuwacchi‬
2nd: @Ellaart4 & ‪@St3phxnii_x‬
3rd: ‪@Justsakura-b3j8o‬ & ‪@Lazy_spoon_artist_official‬

Traditional art!!⤵️📝
1st: ‪@ItsFern_Arts‬ & ‪@MaoART-t6e‬
2nd: ‪@Yuki_.N-z7x‬ & ‪@Kurozora-2815‬
3rd: ‪@Artist_L3XI‬ & ‪@YUKØ_ART611‬

Favorites 👀⤵️
‪@JustzaStar‬
‪@sillyart_35‬
‪@Hazel_art3‬
‪@M1N3YY‬

Make sure to post and tag me so I can see your oc and draw them >_< (for the winners)

AHHH I LUV YALLS ART SM 😭❤️‍🔥✨ Sharing your artworks take a lot of courage, so be proud!
Hope you continue developing your style and sharing your art, you have a real spark, and I’d love to see what you will create next >:3 Every competition you enter is a step forward in your journey, never give up!!

Thankyou for those who he joined the competition, you guys did wonderful 🥹🫶🎉

That’s all I have to say, thankyou everyone for your time and attention,
Have a good night/morning!

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