Mage of Choas

There really is a piece of shit editing my posts and my images to make me look crazy and suixidal. And I cannot wait until you go to prison for causing it to occur on my devices because it's not a thing that a script is capable of having the malicious intentions to do to me, my child, my art, her art or her and my devices.

I'm pressing charges on all of you who participated in causing this. Juvenile or not! Nothing can take back the terrible things happening to us because of you trying to cover your crimes by lying about my sanity. Fuck you.

4 minutes ago (edited) | [YT] | 0

Mage of Choas

Treatment resistant depression as a symptom of PTSD and ADHD is.... Really getting more difficult to bare.

My mother hates me and my child resents me for not overcoming my mother's abuse and confinement is the only way that nobody can hurt me and even then they've illegally come in the home with my keys to invade my privacy. I've never had privacy. I never will I don't deserve that either.

18 minutes ago | [YT] | 0

Mage of Choas

I wish the people interested in me were people I had mutual interests or respect with.


Like.

I wish my religious cousin Essence wouldn't have gotten herself involved in my child life to get me blamed for my moms abusive behaviors towards me over my cousin's religious prejudice against me.

You all suck.

1 hour ago | [YT] | 0

Mage of Choas

For the first time in my life my depression is making me.... Sleepy.

1 hour ago | [YT] | 0

Mage of Choas

People who use fake babies to pretend they are real as adults are fucking creepy and need to stay the fuck away from my kid, my dependents, and me. Thanks.

Fucking CREEPY ass bitches.

That woman lies her ass off about women she's jealous of the body style of.

4 hours ago | [YT] | 0

Mage of Choas

I don't deserve to be a good mommy since my own mom fucking hates me and is a narcissist who hasn't apologised to me with any remote remorse in 30 years.


They're going to make sure I can't get her back from him as revenge for their personal vendettas and fuck ups because they literally caused me so much more pain to blame me for what crimes they've been committing against me to get away with torturing me for not being an abusive or neglectful momma

Even being a good momma means you get abused to smithereens by idiots impersonating government who think they can't get caught.


I'm afraid to get escorted back to her to pick her up because what if they attack me in front of her incorrectly?? I've been threatened by multiple people that they would cause that to me and my baby.

Look what you've done to me because a petty obsessed bitch lying in a hospital after a cop assaulted me in an E.R. room from someone else's car collision.

Also who the fuck offers people drugs or drugs with foil you guys are fucking disgusting because I don't even smoke anything or vape anything and when I did vape it was non-nicotine and non drugs. It was literally just vapor juices with flavors and nothing you could get intoxicated on.

You guys are so shitty to me

I don't know why someone would help these people get away with assaulting me and making me unconscious to do it. But I wasn't even drinking alcohol. If I went to the bathroom I came back to something spiked or laced and then you all mocked me for being the victim of the assaults. Being held hostage. But held responsible for being attacked by officers over and over and over and over. Being held responsible for officers copping a feel and wrongfully jailing and incriminating me.

You'll help morons abduct my child so she gets more traumatised instead of getting her home to her one safe parent.

I never lost custody, had my rights revoked, severred or terminated, and you lost me years of my child's and my own life because you're a dumb ass.

4 hours ago | [YT] | 0

Mage of Choas

Every time I start to blame myself my mom latches onto it and like.... Tries badgering me into standing up for myself as if it's a positive experience.

She fucking hates me lmfao.

5 hours ago | [YT] | 0

Mage of Choas

Period shame is weird because it's always my period blood.

Had the oddest dream about a new woman seeking a relationship with someone who targetted my little one and that was difficult because I just instead told her to avoid him and in my dream that somehow led to them calling me to come pick up her kids who I'd barely known from the agency.

Which is fine but. Like. I didn't think they'd be asking me to watch her kids because why would she be unable to?

It was like they took her to jail or a hospital instead of helping her escape.

And that's what police and excessive use of force does to a victim.


Meanwhile I can't even start a petition for an order of protection without having so much post traumatic stress disorder that I sob uncontrollably the absence of my child because some dumb bitch stole my identity to get away with stealing my phones, phone numbers and accounts to evade HER being arrested for crime she was trying to get ME arrested for.

6 hours ago | [YT] | 0

Mage of Choas

Thought I saw Luke today.

Too scared to look at anyone. So I look away.

18 hours ago | [YT] | 0

Mage of Choas

As we near my menopausal stages please know I have had PMDD since I was a teenager.

This is absolutely not an excuse.

I literally can not stop it and it's been going on for decades.

And that's part of why no one deserves to be around me because I am a terrible bitch a LOT.

My daughter is the only person who cares and even then. She deserves my love. I'm not like this around her when men aren't being abusive to me.

I just.

Don't know


I don't deserve to be loved and she deserves a mommy who is not so hated by everyone who is supposed to love and support us.

I don't deserve to stay here to hurt everyone else while aching so much myself.

I'm so tired of subjecting people to my pain. I'm so selfish.

18 hours ago | [YT] | 0