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Make them remember what’s possible! 🖤

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WHOEVER WANTS TO FEEL WORTHY OF WHAT THEY WANT HAS TO EVENTUALLY STOP PROTECTING THE URGE TO PROVE THEY DESERVE IT

If you really want to internalize that you are confident, capable and allowed to go after what you want, you eventually have to stop explaining yourself to every random person who questions it. I could probably hand you an entire catalogue of the nonsense people say when something falls outside their own reality. The problem begins when you actually grab the bait and turn their opinion into your assignment. Suddenly you are explaining your full background, defending how hard you worked, bringing up childhood wounds, proving why you deserve the opportunity and trying to make them understand your direction from every possible angle. A few minutes earlier you were simply moving toward what you wanted. Now you are in full “I’ll show you” mode. Been there, done that, doesn’t work. Why?

Because the bait usually carries an identity with it. Somebody looks at you through THEIR OWN assumptions and decides who you are: too inexperienced, too ambitious, unrealistic, difficult, someone who will fail, someone who should know her place. The second you start arguing with that image, you are already standing inside their frame trying to change it. YOU CHASE understanding, approval, recognition, proof. They get to stay the skeptic while you perform the role of the person who has to convince them. That dynamic feels completely normal to people who spend their lives expecting disappointment, questioning everything and looking for reasons things cannot work. Their worldview gets confirmed. You walk away drained.

This is where subconscious work gets very real. You can reinforce the pretty world that you want, then somebody throws one lame assumption at you and suddenly you are rehearsing a completely different position through your behavior. The moment criticism sends you into proving mode, you temporarily accept THEIR version of you as something important enough to correct. How are you supposed to receive from a position that is busy chasing permission?

So when somebody comes along with their shit show about why your way of doing things makes no sense, let them keep it, chew it and swallow it. Personally, I love this part because sometimes you can watch their programming short-circuit when you refuse to participate. Their worldview belongs inside the reality that produced it. You do not have to carry it into yours, fix it, convert them, make yourself cheaper, soften your language, change your appearance or redesign the whole damn plan until they finally give you their good grace.

Acceptance of your new reality means accepting that certain people cannot come with you in the same way. The less energy you spend wrestling with realities you never wanted, the more of you is actually available for the one you are building.

Done with their nonsense and ready to go your way full force? Drop a YESSS!! 🖤🔥

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WHAT I WISH I KNEW EARLIER ABOUT STARTING SOMETHING NEW: ZIP YOUR DAMN MOUTH! 🖤

I had to learn this painfully because I used to tell people everything. The second I had a new idea, I wanted to share it. I listened to absolutely everybody, asked for opinions before anything had even happened and assumed that people close to me would naturally want good things for me. I genuinely never had that thing in me where I’d look at somebody else doing well and want to take it away from them. I always thought there was enough for everyone. I believed in people, loved seeing them win and couldn’t understand why somebody would want to copy something, make me doubt myself, confuse me or even ruin something I was excited about.

Turns out people can do exactly that, and the knife in your back rarely introduces itself as a knife. It can look like a sarcastic comment, a little cynicism, someone explaining why your plan is unrealistic or somebody dumping their own shitty fears and limitations all over something they were never going to build in the first place. And the worst possible time to give those voices access is right at the beginning, when an idea has just dropped into your head and you have that insane grin because you can already see and feel it. That “if I actually pulled THAT off… oufff.” The idea that would require serious cojones and possibly a full 180-degree turn from the life you have now.

I’ve realized that this first burst of energy is incredibly useful. It already contains MOTIV-ation. Suddenly you want to know what you need, how your calendar has to change, which appointments can go, what you need to learn, what you need to buy, which words no longer belong in your vocabulary and which version of you has to die right now. That euphoric feeling has a JOB! It gets you moving while the possibility still feels hot enough to chase. Your new timeline is basically waving at you like, “heeey babe, over here, come, ...come to meee!!”

So what did I used to do with that energy? Exactly! Hand it straight to other people.

I had a friend who thought almost everything was too difficult for her, too much effort or easier to leave alone. She mostly wanted to chill, gossip and drink, and somehow I still brought ambitious plans to her and asked what she thought. Looking back, I was asking a lame-ass bitch who had very little desire to change her own shitty circumstances to tell me whether changing mine was possible. Surprise: our friendship ended after I kept doing things anyway. The only thing I regret is that I didn’t dump her ass faster. She was like a concrete block I kept dragging into places she had no intention of going.

I did something similar with my older brother because I carried this picture in my head of what an older brother was supposed to be: encouraging, protective, supportive. At one point I started designing some sick shirts, originally just for myself. People noticed them, asked about them, I sold a few and customized some individually. I still remember going to a party wearing one of my shirts and him suddenly making fun of it in front of everyone, talking about how ridiculous it looked and how scribbly the design was. That genuinely broke my little heart on more levels than I understood at the time, to be honest. A few weeks later, guess who came to me with his own unique business idea involving shirts. And guess who was supposed to do the actual work while he contributed the “ideas.” Yep. After that little performance. Today he has zero access to my plans, my ambitions or my light.

I learned another version of the same lesson while working in agencies. There were obvious problems that could have been improved, and the response around me was often some version of “that’s just how it is” or “we’ve always done it this way.” Eventually I understood that some of those people probably had ideas once too. They probably suggested changes, wanted things to work differently and had that same fire at some point… then got tired of pushing and eventually adapted themselves to the environment. Grey, repetitive, coffee-stinking breath. They chose to become part of it and I quit before I became one of them. I learned there too that I had to take much better care of what I had inside me.

So what did I actually change?

I understood that a dream can be talked to death frighteningly fast if you keep handing it around, regardless of what stage it’s in. But especially at the beginning, I protect it. These days, when I want to integrate something new into my life, I give myself time before I expect to know exactly what it looks like. Usually at least a month. I want the first experiences for myself. I want the wobbly baby steps completely to myself. I want to know how this new thing actually feels in my own life before everybody gets to publish a review on something they’ve never even done themselves. I’m not Google. Everybody does not get review access to me. And I’m very proud of that.

I started taking my relationship with the transformation itself seriously. That’s also one reason I usually tell you to give a subliminal at least three or four weeks before judging anything. Just run with it for a while. Personally, when I decide I’m seriously changing something, I usually give it even more time, at least three months of full focus. Every time I keep going through those weeks, I confirm something to myself: I want this. I chose this. I’m doing this. I follow through. Every promise I keep builds more trust in myself, my own voice and the things I want for my life. No outside yapping required.

And you know what I absolutely love about keeping these transformations to yourself? It makes people curious as hell and yourself magnetic.

People notice eventually, especially once you stop being an open book. I’ve heard almost everything. Apparently I had a new lover. I’d been on vacation. I’d had something done. I was having amazing sex. I changed my hair. Something huge must have happened. Nobody could quite place it, so at this point I just say yes to all of it and let them wear their teeth down trying to figure me out while I keep doing my thing.

What are your thoughts on this? Let me know!! 🖤✨

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CAN A POSITIVE SUBLIMINAL TRIGGER A VERY NEGATIVE REACTION?

I received a comment today from someone who said she had an extremely negative reaction to one of my Goddess Energy subliminals. She described intense anxiety, fear, nausea, difficulty thinking clearly, and eventually did what she called a parasite cleanse because she felt something had been opened up through the audio. I have talked about negative reactions to subconscious work before, but there is still so little proper discussion around this in the space that I want to stay with it for a minute.

First, I cannot verify somebody else’s experience from a YouTube comment. I do not know what you ate yesterday, what you dreamed about, what else is happening in your life, what your mental state was before pressing play, what other audios you listened to, or whether the subliminal had anything whatsoever to do with what happened. I would be making things up if I pretended to know. So for the sake of this conversation, let’s simply assume that the reaction really did begin with the subliminal and ask the more interesting question: how could affirmations that sound completely positive create such a negative response?

The Goddess Energy track includes assumptions like “I am safe in my feminine power,” “I am adored, prioritized and deeply valued,” “I am worshipped, cherished and deeply desired,” “my subconscious fully accepts my divine worth,” and “I am treated like a priceless goddess.” Read them objectively and there is no secret instruction telling you to panic big time in aisle seven. And no, there is no hidden demon between 528 Hz and the rain sounds. Because I make these audios myself, I can also tell you that the production process is considerably less mysterious than people sometimes imagine. If you could watch me recording, editing, layering and exporting these things for hours, all the occult glamour would disappear rather quickly. To be honest, a surprising amount of subconscious reprogramming is me staring at an audio timeline wondering why I keep making certain clicking sounds with my mouth and whether I really talk like that. But those are my own little problems.

Still, an affirmation does not enter an empty mind.

Say some of those sentences out LOUD next time you are around other people and watch what happens. Tell someone that you see yourself as extraordinarily valuable. Say that you expect to be treated exceptionally well. Say that certain treatment is simply beneath what you accept now. Say that you just loooove being feminine, enjoy being desired, expect devotion and have no interest in making yourself smaller to keep other people comfortable. Depending on who is standing in front of you, you may get admiration, laughter, discomfort, moral lectures, eye rolls, accusations of arrogance, or somebody suddenly launching into a full-blown speech about how women ought to behave.

Now imagine what YEARS of absorbing those reactions, directly and indirectly, can build internally.

For one person, “I am deeply desired” may register as lovely. For someone else, being highly desired may already be associated with danger, objectification, jealousy or losing control. “I am treated like a goddess” may sound playful to one person and activate an entire archive of beliefs that were imposed on someone else. “I am safe in my feminine power” becomes a particularly interesting sentence when some women have spent years learning that visibility is risky, beauty attracts hostility, having standards gets you called a bitch, receiving gifts, money and vacations make people resent you, and being openly confident can cost you belonging. And by now, we should have our eyes open enough to understand the kind of world many of those associations were formed in, eh?

Suddenly the supposedly harmless affirmation is asking an old internal system to accept something it may have spent years classifying as dangerous.

That can create resistance, and resistance is not always an intellectual little voice saying, “Hmm, I disagree with this.” Human beings are much more creative than that. Internal conflict can show up as agitation, avoidance, irritation, wanting to switch the audio off, becoming unusually tired, feeling emotionally flooded, or producing the wildest internal storytelling about everything that could supposedly happen if you accepted the new assumption, including scenarios that may never happen at all. I am not saying every headache or nightmare is evidence that your subconscious is heroically fighting your transformation. Sometimes you simply had a bad day. Please allow the day to retain some responsibility for its own crimes.

This is why this work can go much deeper than repeating a pretty affirmation. You are asking yourself to live from assumptions that may contradict assumptions you already carry about yourself and about how you are allowed to move through the world. Unlike therapy, coaching, a structured program or another form of guided identity work, a subliminal does not sit beside you and interrupt halfway through with, “Interesting. Let’s go deeper on that one.” The audio repeats. YOU are the person noticing what comes up.

So if an audio produces a reaction that feels far too intense, you have choices. Stop listening. There is no medal for forcing yourself through something your system is currently fighting with everything it owns. You can rather examine the specific assumptions and ask yourself what each one means to you. What would happen if this were completely true? Who might dislike you? What would you lose? What would you have to stop tolerating? Who or what would you suddenly have to grieve? Which reality would you have to finally admit was true? Shadow work is one of my favorite ways into those questions because the first answer is often the polite answer, and the interesting answer tends to be hiding three floors underneath it.

You can also leave the whole topic alone for now. Work somewhere else. Build another assumption first. Approach the same identity from a completely different direction months later. Some doors open beautifully from the front. Others apparently want you to walk around the building.

Subconscious work is powerful precisely because identity is rarely made from one neat belief sitting alone in a folder. And a strong reaction does not automatically mean “keep going,” and it does not automatically mean something sinister happened either. Sometimes it is simply information. What you do with that information is where your own work begins 🩷

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How many subliminals is TOO MANY? Three audios? Forty-seven? Are you “diluting your focus” every time you change your playlist, or are you now legally required to listen to the same track until retirement?

There is no useful universal number because the real question is not how many subliminals are in your playlist. It is what identity shift are you actually trying to make? I usually recommend getting very clear on what you want first and staying with ONE main theme for a while, simply because that alone is harder than people think. Actually observing yourself, noticing your reactions, documenting patterns, reflecting on what keeps coming up and staying with the same intention long enough to learn something from it is very different from redesigning your entire life every Tuesday because a new playlist looked exciting.

That does not mean you need to torture yourself with one audio until hearing the first three seconds makes you irrationally angry. If several subliminals approach the same core theme from different angles, I actually think that can be useful. The affirmations do not all have to be identical. One might work on financial self-concept, another on visibility, another on receiving larger amounts, another on discipline. Same destination, different doors.

And this is where identity work gets more interesting than “three subliminals good, forty-seven subliminals bad.” Sometimes one assumption changes ridiculously fast because the old belief was already hanging on by a thread. Maybe you have been questioning that part of your life for months. Maybe the old way of living already feels absurd to you. Maybe you genuinely want something different and all you needed was one final little shove before your brain went, oh. Wait. Obviously. That is the lovely falling-dominoes, scales-from-the-eyes moment everyone wants.

Other shifts have more roots attached to them. Say you want to consistently make a certain amount of money every month. Cute. Now suddenly we discover that this is not only about “I make X amount.” Your pricing comes up. Your sense of value comes up. Your willingness to be visible comes up. Your discipline comes up. Your ability to actually finish things comes up. Maybe your relationship with being judged comes barging through the door despite nobody inviting her. One intention can hit several assumptions because identities are annoyingly interconnected like that.

That does not mean: “I found five blocks, therefore I need six additional months and seventeen emergency subliminals.” Please do not turn your subconscious into a spreadsheet. It simply means that when something surfaces, you work with what is actually there. Pull the weed that is interfering with the thing you are trying to grow instead of obsessively counting how many weeds theoretically exist in the entire garden!

So whether three audios or forty-seven makes sense depends less on the number and more on whether they are helping you move deeper into a clear identity or just giving you forty-seven different things to mentally chase. If you know what you are becoming, the playlist can support the shift. If you have no idea what you are becoming, adding another twenty subliminals is probably just giving the confusion funky background music.

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This week’s Patreon drops 🖤

The transformation continues seamlessly, and new subliminals are now dropping on Patreon. Here’s a little preview of what went up this week! 🪄🦋

I also simplified the memberships a little this week ✨🗝️

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I got a comment today that made me realize I probably need to clarify what I actually mean when I talk about not letting the 3D define you, because somehow that idea has apparently become “ignore reality, ignore danger, ignore bills, ignore contracts, ignore obvious red flags, ignore everything that contradicts you and just affirm harder.” And I genuinely do not know where that interpretation comes from. I do not know what other creators teach around this subject, maybe people hear one sentence and turn it into spiritual escapism, or maybe common sense is simply not as common as the name suggests. But your current reality existing does not mean you have to mentally surrender to it, and it also does not mean you should pretend it is NOT there.

If the traffic light is red, I am not walking into traffic while affirming that red means green for me. If a €10,000 bill arrives, I am not throwing it away because “I live in abundance.” And if someone consistently treats you like garbage, you do not have to remain there indefinitely affirming that they are secretly wonderful. At some point, that is not persistence. That is just denying something that is very clearly happening, and it might be worth checking that with a professional.

The distinction is actually pretty simple: circumstances can tell you what is happening right now, but they do not get the final word on what that means about you or what becomes possible next. A bill can exist without becoming “I am broke.” Rejection can happen without becoming “I am unwanted.” A business idea can fail without becoming “I am incapable of making money.” Someone else can think you are delusional, unattractive, too much, not enough, or whatever else they want to think, and their perception STILL does not automatically become your identity. You are the final point of interpretation. If every outside event immediately sends you into panic, doubt, overthinking, and questioning everything you believed about yourself five minutes ago, then your sense of self is still being handed over to your circumstances, and that is your dominant state anyway.

But identity work also cannot stop at thinking different thoughts. Eventually, the way you see yourself has to influence the way you move through your actual life. If you keep affirming that you are an incredibly valuable woman while staying with some loser who expects you to finance him, change how you dress, cook, clean, shrink yourself, and accept treatment you supposedly no longer identify with, the contradiction is not that he has proven your self concept wrong. It is that your choices are still supporting the old one. If you want $1,000 days while relying exclusively on a $15-an-hour job, that job is not morally bad, but it is probably not the mechanism that creates the income level you say is normal for you. So you find, build, or create another mechanism. If you want a strong, healthy, fit body while consistently treating your body in ways that move you in the opposite direction, another thousand repetitions are not a substitute for eventually living from that identity.

That is where the external world actually becomes useful. It gives you feedback. It shows you where something already matches your standards and where it does not. And when something does not match, the conclusion does not have to be “well, apparently everything I believe about myself is wrong.” The much more useful question is: why am I still choosing this, what is this choice reinforcing, and on a higher level, what am I actually trying to achieve by doing what I am doing? Because understanding what your choices are really serving is part of understanding yourself.

From there, you can actually work with reality instead of either obeying it blindly or pretending it is invisible. If something works, great. If it does not, change the strategy. If one route does not take you where you are going, take another one. This is not failure and does not require an identity crisis. Abundance comes with change, more options, and moving your ass and your mind. Persistence means remaining loyal to your own self concept and to the results you believe are available to you. Your circumstances are information, not authority.

And if one red light makes you forget the entire destination, the problem was never the red light.

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