Somehow, the fact that i post very rarely give me some confort. I know that not much people are here any more And thus, i feel i can go into deeper stories without having the fear of being judged. Not stressed anymore by the views count. not stressed about getting bad comments. I confort in that.
Hey! Long time no see. As some of you probably saw, i suddenly woke up in here. And you probably guessed it. I got an inspiration kick. Yeah, after two years of silence. I just made a new video. The inspiration came like a punch in my face while i was listening to some music. And without any warning, i went into a new video.
So, no, i haven't found love (sob! sob!) but at least, i made a new video :) It's just finished and ready to post. But i'm not gonna post it now, i'm gonna wait few days, mostly because i'm rusty and a little scared that it's not as good as i usually made.
Few days ago, i've seen a comment asking me where i am. The comment had disappeared for an unknown reason.
But here's my answer.
I feel better, way better. i think i'm out of depression and secure, i didn't have any setback since quite a while. I deleted any kind of love stories and for now, i'll stay single. I deleted toxic contacts and not really willing to get new contacts. I built my life in order to keep it as simple as possible. But in thoses lifes rearrangment, i totally lost my inspiration. And as this channel gave me extremely toxic contacts which severely broke me, my mind associated this channel to a potential danger. My mind just locked the inspiration, it locked it because it felt danger in video making. (my mind logic : inspiration make videos = videos are posted here = i get views = i get more people following me = i get a potential new threat = this new potential threat can kill me. Solution : locking the inspiration so no more potential threat. Stupid logic but that's how my mind work) Even now, i'm trying to build a channel with a friend and this lock is blocking me a lot, i almost have no inspiration in this new channel and it's gonna probably kill this new channel.
So, for now, unless i break this spiritual lock, nothing new will come up here. It doesn't mean that i'll close the channel. I keep it open and keep it warm for a potential day this lock will break.
I'm still around, still commenting from time to time and mostly commenting on videos dedicated to the Titanic. And sometime, i can be quite harsh, i don't feel i was that harsh in the past and i hope i'll get smoother.
Anyways, that's the current news.
Quite sad to end this message and potentially the full channel with a single message like this one.
But i don't feel it's over yet.
Stay safe, walk in the step of Ereyi'aa and thank Veen'a for the universe we live in :)
Nilaya Lyubov'. the main caracter of the story i'm creating. 12 years old, she come from the east, from the middle lands and walking to the west will make her see way too much for her young age. Artwork made by Iarlis Chavez : www.facebook.com/iarlis.chavez.3
A new commission i asked about the story i created and that i will never publish. The main caracter of this part of the story while she was recieving a health checkup. This part of the story is in a semi steampunk/cyberpunk/dieselpunk universe. I sincerely wish i could be able to write it down but i can't.
I am ultra introverted.
And my sister invited me to her wedding.
She gave me the honor to be her legal witness and her ring carrier in the ceremony.
It was very nice and full of positive emotions :)
But now i need at least a full week to recharge my energy ^^
A machine i sketched today. taken from the story i'm creating. It's a steam powered healing machine. I should maybe make a real drawing of it and not just a sketch :)
Did you know, (yeah i'm talking in the wind instead of making videos ^^) i'm a huge fan of the Titanic history and the movie Titanic is my all time favorite movie.
That was the useless information of the day. next video should come next week :)
Brume argentée
Somehow, the fact that i post very rarely give me some confort.
I know that not much people are here any more
And thus, i feel i can go into deeper stories without having the fear of being judged.
Not stressed anymore by the views count.
not stressed about getting bad comments.
I confort in that.
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Brume argentée
Hey!
Long time no see.
As some of you probably saw, i suddenly woke up in here.
And you probably guessed it.
I got an inspiration kick.
Yeah, after two years of silence.
I just made a new video.
The inspiration came like a punch in my face while i was listening to some music.
And without any warning, i went into a new video.
So, no, i haven't found love (sob! sob!) but at least, i made a new video :)
It's just finished and ready to post.
But i'm not gonna post it now, i'm gonna wait few days, mostly because i'm rusty and a little scared that it's not as good as i usually made.
Stay tuned :)
1 year ago | [YT] | 4
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Brume argentée
Guess what?
1 year ago | [YT] | 3
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Hey there.
Few days ago, i've seen a comment asking me where i am.
The comment had disappeared for an unknown reason.
But here's my answer.
I feel better, way better. i think i'm out of depression and secure, i didn't have any setback since quite a while.
I deleted any kind of love stories and for now, i'll stay single.
I deleted toxic contacts and not really willing to get new contacts.
I built my life in order to keep it as simple as possible.
But in thoses lifes rearrangment, i totally lost my inspiration.
And as this channel gave me extremely toxic contacts which severely broke me, my mind associated this channel to a potential danger.
My mind just locked the inspiration, it locked it because it felt danger in video making. (my mind logic : inspiration make videos = videos are posted here = i get views = i get more people following me = i get a potential new threat = this new potential threat can kill me. Solution : locking the inspiration so no more potential threat. Stupid logic but that's how my mind work)
Even now, i'm trying to build a channel with a friend and this lock is blocking me a lot, i almost have no inspiration in this new channel and it's gonna probably kill this new channel.
So, for now, unless i break this spiritual lock, nothing new will come up here.
It doesn't mean that i'll close the channel.
I keep it open and keep it warm for a potential day this lock will break.
I'm still around, still commenting from time to time and mostly commenting on videos dedicated to the Titanic.
And sometime, i can be quite harsh, i don't feel i was that harsh in the past and i hope i'll get smoother.
Anyways, that's the current news.
Quite sad to end this message and potentially the full channel with a single message like this one.
But i don't feel it's over yet.
Stay safe, walk in the step of Ereyi'aa and thank Veen'a for the universe we live in :)
Ereyi'aa awan'aha
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Brume argentée
Nilaya Lyubov'. the main caracter of the story i'm creating.
12 years old, she come from the east, from the middle lands and walking to the west will make her see way too much for her young age.
Artwork made by Iarlis Chavez : www.facebook.com/iarlis.chavez.3
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Brume argentée
A new commission i asked about the story i created and that i will never publish.
The main caracter of this part of the story while she was recieving a health checkup.
This part of the story is in a semi steampunk/cyberpunk/dieselpunk universe.
I sincerely wish i could be able to write it down but i can't.
3 years ago | [YT] | 6
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Brume argentée
I am ultra introverted.
And my sister invited me to her wedding.
She gave me the honor to be her legal witness and her ring carrier in the ceremony.
It was very nice and full of positive emotions :)
But now i need at least a full week to recharge my energy ^^
3 years ago | [YT] | 9
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Brume argentée
A machine i sketched today. taken from the story i'm creating.
It's a steam powered healing machine.
I should maybe make a real drawing of it and not just a sketch :)
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Brume argentée
Did you know, (yeah i'm talking in the wind instead of making videos ^^) i'm a huge fan of the Titanic history and the movie Titanic is my all time favorite movie.
That was the useless information of the day. next video should come next week :)
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I don't really know what i'm doing but i'm doing it anyway ^^
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